I’m not sure if many of you heard, but I got stuck in Kansas City because I missed my flight to Indianapolis on my way back from Haiti. I went to lunch with some friends and we ended up not making it back in time. I was really upset at first, but looking back on it, I absolutely loved spending time with them all even if it meant missing my flight. I got back on July 7th.
That following Monday (three days later), I left for Kids Camp with my church. I’m sorry, but I think this week was better than Haiti and I say that simply because I actually got to see results from my investment in the kids. We started the camp with maybe 5 to 10% of the kids knowing Christ as their Savior and we walked away with all of them know Jesus personally. It was the most exciting time I had been a part of yet this summer.
Sometimes it’s hard to serve when you don’t feel like you’re doing anything or being useful. Satan was really trying to bring me down this whole summer. Often, I would think, “What am I doing here? I’m not being helpful to the Kingdom. If anything, I was being selfish thinking I could actually be of use.” Well, now I know that was just dumb of me, but then, I was really being drug down by these thoughts—thinking I have no idea why God had all this planned for my summer, until I heard something incredible from a child’s (from Kid’s camp) older sibling.
I have to tell this story that I’m about to tell in order to finish the story about the child from kid’s camp. They intertwine, so try and stay with me, this may get confusing and I’m not too good at articulating myself very well. I got back from Kid’s Camp (also known as Camp Friendship) on July 16th and left for BigStuf (CCG’s high school camp) about 8 hours after we got back from Camp Friendship. As we were leaving, I saw one of the boys from Kid’s Camp saying good-bye to his older brother. I went over and talked to them and the little boy introduced me to his brother who was going to BigStuf with us. I was excited to get to know the kid’s older brother and see what kind of influence he was for his brother. At first, I was kind of disappointed, but I saw an opportunity to invest in this guy’s life so that he could be a good example to his younger brother. Throughout the week at BigStuf, I got a couple opportunities to chat with him, but not too many. I left the deep talks to the guy leaders because I thought that would be better. So, anyways, we were on our way back from BigStuf when we all started to talk about moral topics and some theological discussions (let’s be honest, Sean Beers was in the car, so a theological conversation was bound to take place at some point ;) ) Towards the end of the conversation, the older brother said something so profound for his age, that I just stopped and almost became speechless, but God provided the words in the moment. The guy said something like, “I think I want to start being a better example for my brother. You know, when he came home from kid’s camp…” (side note: the younger brother went to kid’s camp both in June and July. Also, it may be useful to note that the younger brother is going into 6th grade and the older brother is going into 9th, I believe) “…he stopped playing video games as much and instead starting spending time reading his bible. And he prays a lot now too. Maybe I should be an example for him.” For a fourteen year old boy to say something like that at like 1 in the morning during a car ride was something I wish everyone can witness someday. I loved it! Sean, Jane Moon, and I all immediately went on to encourage him and tell him that what he said was very wise for his age and we hope he never forgets that.
That was just one of many incredible things that happened from kid’s camp to BigStuf. And I could go on for hours about all the amazing God moments and cool stories, but I just want to say a couple more things.
I feel like God has shown me quite a bit in these past three months. One thing he showed me was that He’s not calling me to overseas missions no matter how hard that is to swallow. I want to be a missionary so bad, but not for the right reasons and God showed me that. He has me called here in Greenwood to invest in the lives I’ve already started investing into. Also, God has shown me where He wants me for the future. Well, actually, He’s shown me the direction to take, not the destination haha just the next step. God tends to do that and that’s one thing I’m starting to love and grow to adore in out Savior—that He never shows us our destination, but instead shows us the next step. This makes us have to trust Him and that, I love. It helps me to grow closer to God and fully rely on Him and my heart now yearns for that. I would hate it if God showed me the final destination for which He has planned for my future because then I know I wouldn’t trust God enough to get me there if I knew the ending. So, the next step is all I ask for. God will get me where He wants me in His time. And, lastly, this may sound weird and maybe it is, but I’ve been saying this for a while and God confirmed it this summer—I think/know that I am called to be a pastor’s wife someday in the future. I don’t have a boyfriend and I’m not talking or dating anyone, but God has told me that someday I will be married to a pastor. You have no idea how excited I am! But, I need to stay focused on what God has me called to right now.
Okay this is the last thing, I think. I thought I would also update you all on the situation with my college in the fall. Some of you know that I am transferring to Crossroads Bible College in the fall. That is still in the process but we’re pretty sure there should be no complications in going through with that. Also, I will be studying Biblical Counseling and perhaps with that, I want to be a counselor at a church for teens and young adults. I think I’d be good at it, maybe, but we’ll see, God could have completely different plans for me.
I have so many more stories, but I’ll throw those in randomly the next updates that I do. Thank you all for reading and keeping up with me. I’ll keep this blog going as long as I have readers J so show me your love through reading! Thanks again to all of you for your amazing kindness to me. You’re all awesome!